January 6, 2009

Not the same

My Song
(c) 2003 Heaven Sparks

I turned the corner of my heart, I met him once again. He was haunting me and taunting me with the sins from my past. He said, "You'll never be forgiven, and you will never change. This stronghold you will never break, you are bound by your mistakes."

I fell on my knees, I hung my head in shame. Overwhelmed with condemnation, my heart buried in pain. When suddenly, God spoke to me and set me on my feet. He said, "You are not a prisoner, the Truth has set you free. You're not the same, not the same as you used to be."

I have touched Him
I have seen Him,
heard Him
whispering my name.
I'm not the same,
Not the same
as I used to be.

I said, "I'm a new creation, an heir to His throne. God is my Redeemer and He's claimed me as His own. Satan, get behind me in the name of Jesus Christ! I have been forgiven, my Savior's paid the price.

I'm not the same,
not the same
as I used to be...

I'm in a reflecting mood, as God is recalling to mind His love for me. As I was searching for something, I found both the picture in my previous post, and this song I had written years ago.

We all have a story- a past. As I think about mine, I feel overwhelmed with God's love for me. Yet, while we were still sinners, He was there...loving on us...crying for us...waiting for us...

Wow...what an awesome God we serve.

I have a scars on my body from cutting on myself. I used to hate it, as people would notice the one on my wrist. I am no longer ashamed of those scars, because they serve as a constant reminder of how far God has brought me. My scars truly reflect that I really am not the same...not the same as I used to be~


Kelly said...

I'm glad God has relieved you of cutting. That is serious, and I understand it is hard to stop. "You've come a long way, baby."

Greg C said...

Keep it up Girl. You are on the right track and together we can make it to our final destination.

betty said...

that was an awesome song you wrote; I think we are all not the same once we have tasted of the Lord and seen how good he is and I think we continue to never be the same as we continue to want to strive to know him more and be more like him :)


Paulette said...

WOW Heaven,

That was awesome. You have a total gift of writing rather it be blog post or songs. God has anointed you to speak through your writing. You bless me all the time. I'm sorry I haven't called you. I've been struggling with the loss of a good friend due to cancer. It's been hard for me to accept. I've been thinking of you and praying for you.

Hope to talk to you soon,

Susan said...

Beautiful beautiful beautiful!! God is amazing, isn't he??

B His Girl said...

God is strengthening you to walk forward and not look back. I am so glad you have let go of former shame. You have on a coat of many colors. It is the right choice for who you are now.

Sharon said...

I wanted to stop by and thank you for reading my blog. Now I want to tell you, you are not alone. I have a younger sibling who was a cutter for years. He is also healed now. If you ever need to talk or need anything at all, I'll be there:

Yahoo Messenger: mtairymomnc

If you want my phone number, email me, I'll give you that too.

God Bless!

The Rigelsky Family said...

I love you!

Luanne said...

Thanks so much for sharing with us. Real life change happens when there is authenticity and honesty--and you sharing allows the rest of us to be real and not hide in our shame.

Thanks, Heaven.

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