After some soul-searching today over that post, I knew I had to go back one more time. I had to re-visit the reminders of Freedom I had already experienced in this relationship. (**Note** I allowed myself to get depressed after I posted on my marriage).
So, here I sat sulking all day, STILL asking "Why?" Well, God had a remedy for me, as always, if I chose to utilize it, since everything has been all about 'choices' lately. He brought me out of my "victim" mode, and into my "Conquer/Princess Warrior" mode by having me read a few of my beginning posts.
I am not a victim. I am not even a survivor (one who just hangs on). I AM A CONQUERER! (I am a true believer that if I say something enough times, I will eventually believe it). But for now, I will simply put on the royal attire of a conquerer, and the feelings come whenever they come.
So.....yesterday I posted on the negative consequences of my choices, and today, I am taking you to a place where my choices brought release and freedom....
Be blessed today and know that God is good, ALL THE TIME! and ALL THE TIME, God is good!
~Thank you all for your wonderful and encouraging words. I get so blessed when I know God is speaking to others through me. This is a wonderful journey we are on girls and...well...Greg:) LOL
15 comments:
I just read all of your fire posts, and God is a pretty smart cookie. You have a different story to write, not one of what you overcame, but one that the Lord led you through. You can still give an account of some ugly times, when the time is right, but it will have a happy ending. God raised you out of the muck, like He did me.He gets the glory for that, but only if we stop looking backwards.
It's really simplistic, but yesterday in Bible study someone through out Joel Osteen's take on looking backwards: It's like living your life through the tiny rearview mirror, instead of the great big windshield.
It's awesome, and kind of stalky-weird, to be honest, to feel such a connection to someone's journey. It's no accident that with the 300 links to Lysa's, I landed on yours. Take care!
Debbie
Oh yeah, from the weird but true file, my ex-husband and I took my granddaughter and my 2 little boys from my 2nd marriage Trick or Treating last night. Time heals. The Lord heals.
Go GG! I love your post! Conqueror!!!
off topic - "but I also have this intense "rising up" inside me of being tired of the enemy's deceptions". Yes. That is exactly what I feel. God bless you!
Is your name really Heaven?
I have to say that I am honored that you allowed me into this little blog club. I know what you meant about bringing up old hurts. Been there before. Time and God will heal your heart. I am sure of it. He has done it for me.
Caught! Sort of. Actually, today I did have a little time to puruse your blog and read your 20 Qs. A day late and a dollar short. :)
Hope on back to my blog. That message is for you too.
OOPs that is hop, not hope, but hope is a good thing too.
It looks like your post was felt by a lot of people. Myself included.
God says to follow his path and not stray off onto the wrong ones. Sometimes it is SO hard to know WHICH path is the one he is talking about.
As for struggleing with a bad marriage while you have kids....I really can relate to that. Sometimes you stay for your kids. Sometimes you leave for your kids. Sometimes you even do what is right for yourself. Regardless of the decision you make, you will probably always second guess yourself.
I decided to stay for my kids. (visions of us living in the back seat of an old car if I left). Sometimes, however, that back seat seems very inviting.
Do the best you can.
I'll be thinking of you.
Ok if you don't post again soon, I am calling cold case files. :) Hope all is well with you.
OK, Greg is calling Cold Case. I have a buddy at CSI named Gil and a doctor friend named House.
Don't make us come looking for you...
Hey Heaven--I noticed you haven't posted in awhile--i'm praying for you and hope everything is okay!
Hey Girl! Just wondering where you've been. Hope all is well. Love ya!
Hey Heaven, This is Debbie from Ninevah...Luann (less of me) and I are wondering seriously if everything is ok. I can see I'm not the only one. Do the rest of you know where she went? Praying it is nothing more serious than a broken computer.
Deb
Hi God's Girl... I'm God's Girl too (well, I guess we all are, huh?).
Nice to 'meet' you : )
I pray that your computer gets fixed.
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