Hi, I am shifting from my normal posting today. My son, Dylan, needs prayer.
He's 8 and has been labeled with ADHD, ODD, anxiety, possible Bipolar and who knows what else. He has been on medicine for those conditions since he was about 3 or 4. His behaviors have been a constant issue since he was little. Year by year, they add another diagnosis and another medicine and another program to his life.
He's a great kid who loves Jesus so much. He snuggles with Jesus at bedtime and is learning to trust verses being afraid. His life ambition is to grow up and give money to the poor.
The school and I finally have a good working relationship after a couple years, yet they are still seeing some behavior issues despite the added medicine for anxiety. Recently, they noticed a pattern in these behaviors. Between 9:30-10 a.m., they can expect a "hard time" because he "crashes", so they automatically make a shift in his learning from schoolwork to a time of relaxation and exercise.
After putting some pieces together, I have an appointment this morning to get his blood sugars checked. He'll drink 3-4 water bottles a night, plus another one in the middle of the night, & he's going to the bathroom constantly. His ADHD medicine makes it so he's not hungry throughout the day, so at 6 or 7 p.m., he's extremely hungry and eats me out of house and home. Other than that, he'll eat breakfast and that's it.
I really need prayer for the wisdom of the doctors and nurses today. We go in a 11:30 this morning (WI time). It would be a relief if this is a key to all the behavior stuff. He is on more meds than most adults, and it would be amazing if all of this was just a "dietary thing". If his blood sugars are out of "wack", then that would mean he could possibly get off some of his medicines. Please pray that if this is the problem, that it would show up. (You know how you have a problem and go to the Dr. and suddenly you're fine? That's the way it usually works with us:)
I am tired of the enemy stealing from my baby. His destiny is amazing and God has wonderful plans for his life. As long as he is medicated like he is, so much of that potential is "numbed" and "stuck".
Thank you in advance for your prayers! Sorry this isn't my "normal" kind of post.
Blessings!
January 12, 2009
January 10, 2009
Hmmm...what to title this?
This weekend, I'm disappearing from my blog...
I won't be looking at my blog or other blogs...
I am taking a healthy weekend break from the blog-world.
I want to thank you for the encouraging e-mails and blog posts since I have turned my comments off. God has shown me sooooo much since I decided to do that. I know it's only been a couple of days, but it seems longer.
One thing God showed me was that I was making "phone calls" when I blogged, said what I had to say and then "hung up". I then turned off my "ringer" and didn't allow any "phone calls" to come through by turning off my comments. That's kind of a one-way relationship...
I love this world of blogging because of the "interactions" with all of you. I allowed the enemy to get in and steal the joy of doing this through pride.
With God keeping me in check and defining healthy computer boundaries, I will do the job that God has called me to do...to encourage, to edify, and to lift-up others through my blogging.
...and I will allow comments again because I miss you guys...but also because God has shown me what He needed to. Thank goodness I am a quick learner:)
To God be the glory forever and ever and ever!!!!
Love ya!
I won't be looking at my blog or other blogs...
I am taking a healthy weekend break from the blog-world.
I want to thank you for the encouraging e-mails and blog posts since I have turned my comments off. God has shown me sooooo much since I decided to do that. I know it's only been a couple of days, but it seems longer.
One thing God showed me was that I was making "phone calls" when I blogged, said what I had to say and then "hung up". I then turned off my "ringer" and didn't allow any "phone calls" to come through by turning off my comments. That's kind of a one-way relationship...
I love this world of blogging because of the "interactions" with all of you. I allowed the enemy to get in and steal the joy of doing this through pride.
With God keeping me in check and defining healthy computer boundaries, I will do the job that God has called me to do...to encourage, to edify, and to lift-up others through my blogging.
...and I will allow comments again because I miss you guys...but also because God has shown me what He needed to. Thank goodness I am a quick learner:)
To God be the glory forever and ever and ever!!!!
Love ya!
January 9, 2009
Transparent...
While praying about what I am supposed to blog about, God gave me a verse.
He also gave me a word: TRANSPARENT or TRANSPARENCY
So I sat here asking God how the two went together. I looked up the definition for transparent on Dictionary.com and this is the definition I assumed He was talking about:
-Open, frank, candid (which is what this blog is doing to me)
...but then, He pointed out another definition: having the property of transmitting rays of light through its substance so that bodies situated beyond or behind can be distinctly seen;
so sheer as to permit light to pass through
I then looked up transparency: That which is transparent; especially, a picture painted on thin cloth or glass, or impressed on porcelain, or the like, to be viewed by natural or artificial light, which shines through it.
-Have you also been praying to be "real" in your Christian walk?
-Have you been asking God to mold you and refine you?
-Have you been convicted more over your visible and/or hidden sins?
-Do you feel "naked" without your excuses or reasoning?
-Do you feel like others are constantly getting "away" with things, while God checks your heart and motives OFTEN?
Then, CONGRATS! You are on a "transparency" walk with God...
Yeah, He's "still working on you!"
Jesus said in the above verse that YOU are the light of the world!
Now look again at the definition of transparency...This is cool!
(I'm going to ad lib for a moment)
--YOU, being transparent, as a picture painted on a thin cloth or glass, or impressed on porcelain...to be viewed (by the world)...by shining natural or artificial light (Jesus Christ) through it...
Without Jesus, we are nothing. We are a "simple picture painted on a thin cloth or glass" that has no real beauty until the rays of light shine through it".
If we have "junk" in the way, the light cannot get through. If you have prayed for God to make and mold you into what He wants you to be, that is exactly what He is doing. You are to be the light to the world. If His light can't shine through because of "junk" in your life, He's going to help you remove them, because you are to shine and be a city on a hill that cannot be hidden.
Look at the first definition of transparent: having the property of transmitting rays of light through its substance so that bodies situated beyond or behind can be distinctly seen;
so sheer as to permit light to pass through.
Do rays of Jesus' light shine through you so that you stand out among the darkness around you? Do people notice that you are different? Do people seek Jesus because of what they see in You? Are you allowing Satan to hide your light under a bowl? Or is your light becoming brighter everyday for God?
I want to be so emptied of myself that God's image can totally shine through me. I want to have the property of transparency that Jesus can distinctly be seen...
Transparency is a journey...not a destination. This is one journey we will be on until we meet Jesus face-to-face. But as long as we allow Him to remove the spiritual obstacles one at a time, our light will grow brighter and brighter, permitting His reflection to overpower ours...
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~Determined to shine~
Matthew 5:14-16--
14"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
14"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
He also gave me a word: TRANSPARENT or TRANSPARENCY
So I sat here asking God how the two went together. I looked up the definition for transparent on Dictionary.com and this is the definition I assumed He was talking about:
-Open, frank, candid (which is what this blog is doing to me)
...but then, He pointed out another definition: having the property of transmitting rays of light through its substance so that bodies situated beyond or behind can be distinctly seen;
so sheer as to permit light to pass through
I then looked up transparency: That which is transparent; especially, a picture painted on thin cloth or glass, or impressed on porcelain, or the like, to be viewed by natural or artificial light, which shines through it.
-Have you also been praying to be "real" in your Christian walk?
-Have you been asking God to mold you and refine you?
-Have you been convicted more over your visible and/or hidden sins?
-Do you feel "naked" without your excuses or reasoning?
-Do you feel like others are constantly getting "away" with things, while God checks your heart and motives OFTEN?
Then, CONGRATS! You are on a "transparency" walk with God...
Yeah, He's "still working on you!"
Jesus said in the above verse that YOU are the light of the world!
Now look again at the definition of transparency...This is cool!
(I'm going to ad lib for a moment)
--YOU, being transparent, as a picture painted on a thin cloth or glass, or impressed on porcelain...to be viewed (by the world)...by shining natural or artificial light (Jesus Christ) through it...
Without Jesus, we are nothing. We are a "simple picture painted on a thin cloth or glass" that has no real beauty until the rays of light shine through it".
If we have "junk" in the way, the light cannot get through. If you have prayed for God to make and mold you into what He wants you to be, that is exactly what He is doing. You are to be the light to the world. If His light can't shine through because of "junk" in your life, He's going to help you remove them, because you are to shine and be a city on a hill that cannot be hidden.
Look at the first definition of transparent: having the property of transmitting rays of light through its substance so that bodies situated beyond or behind can be distinctly seen;
so sheer as to permit light to pass through.
Do rays of Jesus' light shine through you so that you stand out among the darkness around you? Do people notice that you are different? Do people seek Jesus because of what they see in You? Are you allowing Satan to hide your light under a bowl? Or is your light becoming brighter everyday for God?
I want to be so emptied of myself that God's image can totally shine through me. I want to have the property of transparency that Jesus can distinctly be seen...
Transparency is a journey...not a destination. This is one journey we will be on until we meet Jesus face-to-face. But as long as we allow Him to remove the spiritual obstacles one at a time, our light will grow brighter and brighter, permitting His reflection to overpower ours...
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~Determined to shine~
January 8, 2009
Refuse to judge...
There's a song I used to listen to as a kid, and for whatever reason, I cannot stop singing it today:) So I decided to google it and get the lyrics.
He's still working on me
By Joel Hemphill
Listen to the Tune
He's still working on me to make me what I ought to be.
It took Him just a week to make the moon and stars,
The sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars.
How loving and patient He must be, He's still working on me.
1. There really ought to be a sign upon the heart,
Don't judge her yet, there's an unfinished part.
But I'll be perfect just according to His plan
Fashioned by the Master's loving hands.
CHORUS:
2. In the mirror of His Word reflections that I see
Make me wonder why He never gave up on me.
He loves me as I am and helps me when I pray
Remember He's the Potter, I'm the clay.
CHORUS:
Well, praise God that I am not finished yet!!! But that also means one more thing...
...neither is anyone else, which means...
...I can't really judge them either...
I don't know about you, but sometimes, I get a little too big for my Christian britches. I tend to want all the grace in the world, but I'm not always willing to give it.
I want God to excuse my imperfections, but I'm not willing to excuse others'.
I want forgiveness and grace, yet I occasionally hold grudges and refuse to give grace.
I want people to quit holding my past over my head, yet how often do I remind someone else of theirs.
Do you see where I'm going with this? I am going to discuss this more, but just something to get us thinking...well, me anyway.
God has never given up on me, yet why have I given up on others?
We all have judgments towards someone else, whether it's small or big. Any time you have made a decision about someone, you have made a judgment. Is it correct? Is it right? Is it fair? Or is it your opinion? If it's a fact, is it accurate? or any of your business? We justify ourselves too often!
God wants the excuses gone, and wants us to start living a life that is giving of God's love. The world doesn't need any more pointing fingers, and mine needs to be ten less in their face.
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January 7, 2009
Re-prioritizing... .
O-kay, I have to be totally transparent with you. I love writing. I really do. I love expressing myself in words, because in person, my mouth gets tongue-tied a lot. I make total sense in writing. When I speak, I blunder and feel like an idiot.... But I LOVE writing...always have...hopefully, I always will.
Sometimes, I will read what I've written over and over in awe that I actually wrote that. I don't always feel like the girl who pumps out a blog a day. I don't always feel important, so when I read something I've written and know I'm making a difference in people's lives, I suddenly feel important.
I love knowing that other people actually want to read what I write. How cool is that for the girl who grew up as the "odd ball" to have people want to "follow" her? I get excited when I get another follower, or another comment is left. (I sense a little-lot-pride coming on here.)
When I write, I truly believe God speaks through me, but I've misused His gift for my own glory. I've taken credit for the words...for the thoughts...for the direction it's going.
I haven't necessarily done that in my posting; however, I have done that in reading my comments.
The hidden pride that is unseen...the puffed up ego as I read what people have to say about my writing...the secret conversations I have within myself... "yes, I have another follower...I must be really good, everyone seems to like me...This was a great post, why don't I have more comments...that person thinks I'm awesome...wow, look at me..."
Yes, unfortunately, these are conversations I have with myself...
So, what now?
I could have gotten away with it, but...there's bondage there. Right now, this is just a little problem, but the potential to become big is there. I don't want to go there. Falling from pride really stinks. Besides, my computer was broke long enough, I surely don't want to go through that again. LOL. Whatever God gives, He can also take away.
So, I have a solution because I really want to continue to write and blog. For an unknown period of time, I am turning off my comments. No one will be able to comment. I really love hearing from everyone, but I have to re-prioritize my writing. If you feel you need to talk to me, I have a link for my e-mail on my profile page.
I need to get back to writing for the approval of an audience of only One. I can write the most magnificent thing in the world, but if my heart isn't in the right place, it won't mean a thing.
I love to write...I love God using me through writing...but most of all, I love the fact that He loves me enough not to let me stay the way I am. Changes bring me closer to my Heavenly Father, and in the direction of His will! Love you guys!!!
~Moving forward towards God's will.~
Sometimes, I will read what I've written over and over in awe that I actually wrote that. I don't always feel like the girl who pumps out a blog a day. I don't always feel important, so when I read something I've written and know I'm making a difference in people's lives, I suddenly feel important.
I love knowing that other people actually want to read what I write. How cool is that for the girl who grew up as the "odd ball" to have people want to "follow" her? I get excited when I get another follower, or another comment is left. (I sense a little-lot-pride coming on here.)
When I write, I truly believe God speaks through me, but I've misused His gift for my own glory. I've taken credit for the words...for the thoughts...for the direction it's going.
I haven't necessarily done that in my posting; however, I have done that in reading my comments.
The hidden pride that is unseen...the puffed up ego as I read what people have to say about my writing...the secret conversations I have within myself... "yes, I have another follower...I must be really good, everyone seems to like me...This was a great post, why don't I have more comments...that person thinks I'm awesome...wow, look at me..."
Yes, unfortunately, these are conversations I have with myself...
So, what now?
I could have gotten away with it, but...there's bondage there. Right now, this is just a little problem, but the potential to become big is there. I don't want to go there. Falling from pride really stinks. Besides, my computer was broke long enough, I surely don't want to go through that again. LOL. Whatever God gives, He can also take away.
So, I have a solution because I really want to continue to write and blog. For an unknown period of time, I am turning off my comments. No one will be able to comment. I really love hearing from everyone, but I have to re-prioritize my writing. If you feel you need to talk to me, I have a link for my e-mail on my profile page.
I need to get back to writing for the approval of an audience of only One. I can write the most magnificent thing in the world, but if my heart isn't in the right place, it won't mean a thing.
I love to write...I love God using me through writing...but most of all, I love the fact that He loves me enough not to let me stay the way I am. Changes bring me closer to my Heavenly Father, and in the direction of His will! Love you guys!!!
~Moving forward towards God's will.~
Rediscover...
Rediscovering who I am in Christ...
I tend to focus on "where I'm not", instead of "where I am" or "where I've come from". There is some part of me that seeks out failing moments, instead of accomplished successes . My eyes see the steps I have missed, instead of the miles I have walked. My heart condemns the blown reactions, rather than the many I got right. In order to get to where I need to be, I have to see where I've been, which will confirm that I am right where I am supposed to be.
The last week in my blogging has been incredible for me. As I look back into my past, I am beginning to see a new perspective in my present. I TRULY AM NOT THE SAME AS I USED TO BE!
It's one thing to say it, it's another to represent it, yet even another to believe it!
I've been saying it for years.
I represent it often.
Yet, I've never believed...
Yet, today I BELIEVE it!
"I am a new creation in Christ!"
"I am an Heir to the throne!"
"I am the head and not the tail!"
"I am more than a conquerer!"
"I can do ALL things in Christ!"
"I am a daughter of the King!"
O-kay, so I believe it more than I did yesterday. And that is a start...
Is there something that God has been saying about you that you need to begin to believe?
Are you believing lies from the enemy about yourself or your situation?
Do you need to re-discover who you are in Christ...or who God really is?
Do you view yourself as worthy, valuable, precious, acceptable, priceless, and wanted in the eyes of God? If not, you are believing a lie...a lie that the enemy crafted and engraved in your heart and thoughts.
You are worthy! You are valuable! You are precious! You are acceptable! You are priceless! God wants YOU and loves YOU unconditionally! Anything less than that is a lie from the pit of hell. It's time to start believing the VOICE OF TRUTH!!!
God doesn't lie. He doesn't make junk. He doesn't change His mind about you and I because we sin or mess up. His love is a love that NEVER changes! Can you grasp that?
I don't care how big the mess you are in, God has not changed His mind about you.
So together, let's begin to believe that we are God's beloved and cherished, and begin stomping on the lies that keep us from becoming all that God means for us to be.
Let's renew our minds and rediscover who we are in Christ!!!
I tend to focus on "where I'm not", instead of "where I am" or "where I've come from". There is some part of me that seeks out failing moments, instead of accomplished successes . My eyes see the steps I have missed, instead of the miles I have walked. My heart condemns the blown reactions, rather than the many I got right. In order to get to where I need to be, I have to see where I've been, which will confirm that I am right where I am supposed to be.
The last week in my blogging has been incredible for me. As I look back into my past, I am beginning to see a new perspective in my present. I TRULY AM NOT THE SAME AS I USED TO BE!
It's one thing to say it, it's another to represent it, yet even another to believe it!
I've been saying it for years.
I represent it often.
Yet, I've never believed...
Yet, today I BELIEVE it!
"I am a new creation in Christ!"
"I am an Heir to the throne!"
"I am the head and not the tail!"
"I am more than a conquerer!"
"I can do ALL things in Christ!"
"I am a daughter of the King!"
O-kay, so I believe it more than I did yesterday. And that is a start...
Is there something that God has been saying about you that you need to begin to believe?
Are you believing lies from the enemy about yourself or your situation?
Do you need to re-discover who you are in Christ...or who God really is?
Do you view yourself as worthy, valuable, precious, acceptable, priceless, and wanted in the eyes of God? If not, you are believing a lie...a lie that the enemy crafted and engraved in your heart and thoughts.
You are worthy! You are valuable! You are precious! You are acceptable! You are priceless! God wants YOU and loves YOU unconditionally! Anything less than that is a lie from the pit of hell. It's time to start believing the VOICE OF TRUTH!!!
God doesn't lie. He doesn't make junk. He doesn't change His mind about you and I because we sin or mess up. His love is a love that NEVER changes! Can you grasp that?
I don't care how big the mess you are in, God has not changed His mind about you.
So together, let's begin to believe that we are God's beloved and cherished, and begin stomping on the lies that keep us from becoming all that God means for us to be.
Let's renew our minds and rediscover who we are in Christ!!!
January 6, 2009
Not the same
My Song
(c) 2003 Heaven Sparks
I turned the corner of my heart, I met him once again. He was haunting me and taunting me with the sins from my past. He said, "You'll never be forgiven, and you will never change. This stronghold you will never break, you are bound by your mistakes."
I fell on my knees, I hung my head in shame. Overwhelmed with condemnation, my heart buried in pain. When suddenly, God spoke to me and set me on my feet. He said, "You are not a prisoner, the Truth has set you free. You're not the same, not the same as you used to be."
I have touched Him
I have seen Him,
heard Him
whispering my name.
I'm not the same,
Not the same
as I used to be.
I said, "I'm a new creation, an heir to His throne. God is my Redeemer and He's claimed me as His own. Satan, get behind me in the name of Jesus Christ! I have been forgiven, my Savior's paid the price.
I'm not the same,
not the same
as I used to be...
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I'm in a reflecting mood, as God is recalling to mind His love for me. As I was searching for something, I found both the picture in my previous post, and this song I had written years ago.
We all have a story- a past. As I think about mine, I feel overwhelmed with God's love for me. Yet, while we were still sinners, He was there...loving on us...crying for us...waiting for us...
Wow...what an awesome God we serve.
I have a scars on my body from cutting on myself. I used to hate it, as people would notice the one on my wrist. I am no longer ashamed of those scars, because they serve as a constant reminder of how far God has brought me. My scars truly reflect that I really am not the same...not the same as I used to be~
(c) 2003 Heaven Sparks
I turned the corner of my heart, I met him once again. He was haunting me and taunting me with the sins from my past. He said, "You'll never be forgiven, and you will never change. This stronghold you will never break, you are bound by your mistakes."
I fell on my knees, I hung my head in shame. Overwhelmed with condemnation, my heart buried in pain. When suddenly, God spoke to me and set me on my feet. He said, "You are not a prisoner, the Truth has set you free. You're not the same, not the same as you used to be."
I have touched Him
I have seen Him,
heard Him
whispering my name.
I'm not the same,
Not the same
as I used to be.
I said, "I'm a new creation, an heir to His throne. God is my Redeemer and He's claimed me as His own. Satan, get behind me in the name of Jesus Christ! I have been forgiven, my Savior's paid the price.
I'm not the same,
not the same
as I used to be...
-------------------------------------------------------
I'm in a reflecting mood, as God is recalling to mind His love for me. As I was searching for something, I found both the picture in my previous post, and this song I had written years ago.
We all have a story- a past. As I think about mine, I feel overwhelmed with God's love for me. Yet, while we were still sinners, He was there...loving on us...crying for us...waiting for us...
Wow...what an awesome God we serve.
I have a scars on my body from cutting on myself. I used to hate it, as people would notice the one on my wrist. I am no longer ashamed of those scars, because they serve as a constant reminder of how far God has brought me. My scars truly reflect that I really am not the same...not the same as I used to be~
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