December 27, 2011

I still...





I'm reminded today of the promises God has given me regarding my future and the future of my children.


Although I do not hold all of the results in my hands, I will still choose to believe. I still choose to hope for them to be fulfilled. I still stand on the Word of God. I still know that God said "Yes"; therefore, I wait... and I trust... and I believe... and I hold fast.

December 6, 2011

Attitude of gratitude...

Philippians 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!

I'm sure most of my Facebook friends can tell when I'm doing "good" emotionally and when I'm not. I tend to post more positive statuses when I'm doing "good", and disappear when I am not.

I'm doing "good" right now.

I have had mountain after mountain of trials over the past year, and it is nice to get a reprieve from those. The funny thing is though, that my trials haven't disappeared, but my attitude of complaining has.

I woke this morning being thankful. As I watched slow flakes fall and glisten in the air, I saw such beauty and I thanked God for His creation.

As I think about what has changed lately in my life, I realize that nothing really has...except ME.

My trust in God has exceeded heights I never knew was possible. I have come to lean on the One who holds my world in His hands. I have come to trust that He really does "have a plan for my future...to prosper me and not to harm me...to give me hope and a future."

Philippians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God"

I used to think this verse meant to thank God for EVERYTHING, including the bad stuff. Although there is some truth to that, I suddenly realize I am to have an "attitude of thanksgiving/gratitude" as I present my requests to God.

For example: I do not have to be thankful that my checkbook is down to mere cents so close to Christmas, BUT I can be thankful knowing my Heavenly Father and perfect Provider has my finances covered. Some how, some way, He is still in control and I know He ALWAYS provides for my needs!

I do not have to be thankful for the trials my oldest child is going through, BUT I can rest in the fact that even though I am three hours away...God is beside Him. I can find peace in knowing that Jesus knocks on the door of his heart. I can have joy because I KNOW God also has my son's future in His hands.

Finances and my children...my two biggest sources of anxiety and fear...YET I can offer my praises to God because even though things look bleak in the natural, with what my eyes can see, I KNOW God is about to break through in the supernatural!

How do I know??? God has given me promises, though the Word of God, the Bible, about my finances AND my children's futures. He continues to point me to verses about prosperity and blessings financially. He also continues to give me verse upon verse about BOTH of my children serving the Lord, and about them BOTH having the peace of God.

So I can rest. I can be thankful. I can have peace.

And because of the daily time I spend with God, I can KNOW that I KNOW that I KNOW that He is FOR me, and not AGAINST me. I know I don't have to spend hours in anxious prayer time begging Him to take care of what I cannot. I just have to pray scripture back to God, scriptures/promises HE gave me, and KNOW that He is STILL God...and STILL in control of my future...

I encourage you to open your Bible to any of these verses listed, and really ask God what they mean, what they "look like", for your own life. Ask Him for promises you can stand upon during your tough seasons of life.

I pray that you will develop an attitude of gratitude in your life as you really realize that God is the Master Builder of your life, and He holds the blueprints of your life in His hands.


November 24, 2011

"Give thanks..."

"Shout for joy..."

"Sing a song..."

"Rejoice..."

Little words. Short phrases. Simplicity, right???

Well, it should be. In actuality, it really is, yet somehow we (er...um...I) make it harder than what it should be.

In my quiet time with Jesus, my heart has been impressed with the common theme of joy.

JOY - JOY - JOY

Say that word by itself, and it only tells me what I wish I had. It doesn't tell me what I need to do to have joy, nor does it tell me how to obtain it. It just reminds me of a deep desire of something I wish my soul possessed. Joy...

I'm a "fast food" kind of girl. I order it. I want it. And I would like it now-please-and-thank-you. I don't care for fancy food and I don't care how long it has simmered for. Just get it on my plate. If I smell it, then it should be time to eat it.

I don't like exercise, yet am in great need of some major weight loss! I'm still waiting for the miracle revival meeting where I get Holy Spirit "zapped" & all my weight is shed off at the altar, with everyone praising the Lord, while I dance around, falling out of my overly huge clothes from my instantaneous miracle weight loss.

"Are you ready to stop smoking?" my wonderful doctor asks, where I stubbornly reply, "Not unless you have an instant cure-of-a-pill where I will never crave another cigarette, will not gain weight, will not have mood swings, and can guarantee it will be an easy-peasy, happy journey to being a non-smoker."

So, imagine my response when God told me what the answer to having joy was!!!

Can ya guess??? Go ahead! Guess!

I gasped. Like the kind of "gasp" I did when He told me I probably would not have my instantaneous "Revival-miracle-weight-loss" experience.

"Give thanks Heaven! In ALL things! In ALL seasons! In ALL circumstances! When your checkbook is empty, give thanks that your needs are being met! When...give thanks!"

Well, I kinda' do that anyway. Sorta'. Um...sometimes. Well, only when it's not THAT bad! But I suppose I could give thanks more. Sure, no problem.

"SHOUT for joy Heaven! Give out a shout to me for all of the wonderful things you DO HAVE!"

I don't want to shout, but o-kay, if I have to, I suppose I can try.

"Sing a song sweet Heaven! When you sing a song of praise, it penetrates the darkness around you! Sing when you are sad. Sing when you are happy. Sing when you are worried. Sing when you are peaceful. Sing when you are depressed. Sing when you feel content. Sing. Sing. Sing! Especially when you don't feel like it!!!"

Hmmm...This list is sounding pretty familiar. I'm sure I have heard this before. Actually, many times before! I guess I am supposed to sing!!!

"Rejoice Heaven, rejoice! You are so busy looking at everything you do NOT have that you are failing to see all that you DO have. Cultivate an attitude of praise. It really does create joy. At first, it may seem odd and it may feel uncomfortable, but every time you CHOOSE to rejoice rather than despair, you are choosing to walk closer to joy..."

I don't know about you, but I really am tired of sitting on the sidelines and watching others experience joy while I still sit miserable. I often wonder if God lets us get to that place of getting "sick and tired of being sick and tired" so we will finally do what He's been asking us to do for forever!

What has God been asking you to do? Are you ready to do it? Are you finally ready to take the journey that He has placed in front of you over and over and over and over? I'm thankful God never gives up on me! I'm thankful that He continues to encourage me to walk forward on the individual journey that He's placed me on!

October 3, 2011

Fear (Video blog post)

I finally gave in and decided to do a video blog post. I had tooooooo much fun with this. I hope you enjoy it:) Blessings Friends!!!

September 25, 2011

Sleepless in Wisconsin

I should be asleep!
I really should.
My child is asleep.
His friend is asleep.
I should be asleep!

I close my eyes and hear the sounds around me...

Tom & Jerry on TV.
The breathing of my son.
The clock ticking.
A cricket outside my door.
The faucet dripping.
Tiny footsteps next door.
My heartbeat.

I wait a few more minutes
to see if I can hear any other sound...

I do.

it's a whisper

of my Papa

saying,

"dream..."

"It's time to dream again..."

"dream big..."

"dream and expect..."

d.r.e.a.m.b.i.g.a.g.a.i.n.

...it's time!

September 23, 2011

Where's the "line"?

Where do we draw the line in the sand?
In a place where it's comfortable for us?
Or in a place where God says to draw the line?

And then with so many versions of the Bible, do we look for the version that gives us permission to do what it is that we want? The version that justifies it's o-kay. It's not like we'll lose our salvation. At least, not with that one decision. Maybe down the road, we could, but, you know, we'll stop before it gets that far.

Where's our hearts?
Where's our integrity?
Where's the character in all of that?
Where is our fear of the Lord?

If Christians are supposed to be light in this world, then why do we make excuses for our reason of molding to the ways of this world? When does it end? Are we willing to stand up, and sweat blood, to declare I WILL NOT COMPROMISE!

Most of us aren't. Honestly.

We'll stand until it gets too hard and then we cave into it. Why? What keeps us from truly turning our backs upon something and never going back? What is the key? What is the issue we need to "get" in order to do that?

I'm totally talking to myself as well.

I'm just overwhelmed this morning with so many questions and scenarios of situations people have shared with me in the past month.

I don't "get" it. I want to. I really do.

I want to "get" it for me! I want to "get" it for you!

I want the "key"!!!

I want the "thing", whatever that "thing" is, that helps us to get out of our complacency of a luke-warm life of simply surviving in a mound compromised decisions.

What is it going to take????

Just my huge mound of thoughts this morning!


September 21, 2011

Rules, God, & Boundaries

Romans 7:18-25

For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.


21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!


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"I know the right thing to do, but yet I'm not doing it. I want to stop, but how? How can I get free? Why don't I just stop? Why can't I just turn away? What a horrible person I am! If people only knew just how wretched I really was! If they knew MY sin, they would hate me!!!"
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I have said the preceding words before. I have sobbed and pleaded with God to take away my horrible habits and sins. I have begged for Him to just remove the temptation before me. At times, He did.

The other times, I had to CHOOSE to walk away. 
I had to CHOOSE to turn off different TV programs. 
I had to CHOOSE to turn against my own desires. 
I had to CHOOSE to say "NO" to whatever fleshly desire was knocking at my door.

I have had Christian friends tell me, "Just DON'T do it!"

Really??? I would love to "just not do it". I would love to be able to have the power and ability to "just not do it".

With Jesus Christ, we DO have the power. 

I used to think God had all sorts of rules for me to follow because He just wanted to take the fun out of my life. NO drinking, NO swearing, NO smoking, NO sex before marriage, KEEP a pure heart, KEEP a pure mind, KEEP good thoughts, etc.

The more I live life, and the more I seek God, I'm realizing He has set those boundaries to protect us. To keep our heart from pain. To keep us from causing other people heartaches. God doesn't long to punish us. He longs to keep us out of the pits we dig and then jump into.

I know He grieves when we get ourselves into one of those situations. I used to think that He grieved because we couldn't live up to the standard He placed before us, you know, that He was thinking, "Boo hoo, I don't know why I trusted that Heaven with that rule. I knew she would break it. She's never going to 'get it'."

But of course, that's not who God is!

I think God grieves FOR us. See, when we jump into a great big slimy pit without realizing it (or caring), He KNOWS what we will have to endure and go through. He knows the pain we are going to experience. He knows the beginning, middle, and end, and therefore, He knows our choices will cause us gut-wrenching pain at times.

Most of us do not just totally defy the rules. We don't always intend to get into the messes we get into to. Our hearts long to please God...

Yet...

We want "that other thing" as well...
 whatever that may be. 

"That thing" that God has said "No" to. 
"That thing" that is contrary to what God defines as Holy. 
We don't want to totally rebel...
We just want a little...
then a little more...
and a little more.

Next thing we know, we've buried ourselves in our "junk", the "thing" that we knew we would NEvER do!!!

"How did we get here!!!"

We compromised.

Just a little.

Then a little more.

Maybe a tad bit more than we wanted to.

Well, a little bit more should be fine.

A compromise is a compromise!

I really try to lead a pure life. I have chosen to remove many of the things that trigger my struggles. I'm a "Rated G" and "Rated PG" kind of girl. I KNOW where my mind can go and how I could fantasize if I allowed myself to, therefore, I'm very careful of what TV programs I watch, the music I listen to, the books I read, the situations I could get myself into.

Over the years, I have really sought God on this, and for me, that means I don't go with my friends to watch "chick flicks". I don't really watch alot of things that I wouldn't allow my children to watch. Sexual images flash across even the simplest commercial, so I'm cautious how much time I spend watching TV.

Songs- Because of my history with guys and the bars, I don't listen to much secular music. I'm a "Christian music" kind of girl. Almost every old song that comes on the radio seems to remind me of some guy, party, or lifestyle choice I used to live.

People boundaries- I don't hang out with guys. I don't spend any time alone with guys. I don't talk late nights or for long periods of time with guys. I KNOW myself! I KNOW my weaknesses. I KNOW I have a seductive personality and I used to love flirting.

I sound very "prudish", but I've made too many mistakes to worry about how I sound. I got tired of my heart breaking. I got tired of seeking for acceptance and love in the wrong places. I got tired of the shame and guilt and the self-destructive behaviors that I sought out because of my need for love.

Human nature is to seek something to fill the God-sized hole in our hearts, whether it be people, work, sex, drugs, alcohol, food, or whatever else.

I've seen too many people with broken hearts. It's not worth it for me.

Are you compromising? 

Does it feel like you've crossed the "point of no return?" I promise you, you're NEVER too far gone for God!!! NEVER, EVER, EVER!!!

Satan wants you to believe that you can "handle it", you can turn back whenever you want, you can change it, noooooooooooooooooo problem!

It's a lie.

God doesn't set rules to frustrate you.

Really, He doesn't.

He does it to protect you.

Sometimes from yourself.

September 16, 2011

God knew what He was getting into!

When we compromise,
we always tend to feel "less than".

This morning, as I was spending some time worshiping, I came across this song by Misty Edwards. It says what I so often have felt when I feel like I have let God down.

We're human.
We make mistakes.
We sin.
We repent.
We feel worthless.
We sin.
We repent.

Eventually, we feel like we are close to "running out of grace". We wonder if we are ever going to "get it right".

Today, I want you to know that God is NOT disgusted with you. He's NOT disappointed with you. He's NOT sorry He's called you. He knew what He was getting into when He asked you to be His. This song speaks of the very same thing.

Close your eyes.
Listen to the words.
And let God speak to your heart.



September 13, 2011

Compromise

Com-pro-mise (kam'pre miz)- v. 1. to settle by a compromise. 2. to put in danger of being criticized or disgraced. 3. to expose or make vulnerable to danger, suspicion, scandal, etc. 4. To make a dishonorable or shameful concession.

Compromise...

There are certain things in life that would die or lose its flavor without compromise: friendships, marriages, parenting, work, and chores...

To compromise with the enemy, however, only leads to a toxic and sometimes, fatal outcome. Satan advances in as a wolf in sheep's clothing, finding in us our weakness. He digs out his conniving book of lies and begins the journey of deceiving us.

He shows us a copy of his rules, making us think, "Why did I ever think he was out to devour me? He's giving me more choices than God."

"You can go a little farther."
"Just one more time, and that's it."
"But if feels so good."
"This won't affect anyone but you."
"You can repent afterward."
"What's the big deal?"
"Everyone does it."
"It's just a little sin."
"God will forgive you."

We sign on the dotted line, but as the enemy turns to leave, the camouflaged ink begins to fade, only to reveal the fine print,

and
you
LOSE!

We give a little and he takes it all. That is not much of a compromise in my eyes.

Does he play fair? NO.

Does he try to deceive us with his wheeling and dealing, getting us to believe that he will keep his end of the bargain? Absolutely!

Sexual sin involves compromise... all of the time.

We compromise our purity.
We compromise our morals.
We compromise the Word of God.
We compromise our heart.
We compromise our peace.
We compromise our destiny.
We compromise our mind.
We compromise our victory.

In Matthew 4, Jesus was tempted three times by satan. On the third time, when satan offered Jesus all the kingdoms of the world if Jesus would only bow down and worship him.

Jesus did not passively say, "Oh, maybe you should go now."

Jesus, with authority and (most-likely) volume, declared, "AWAY FROM ME SATAN!"

Jesus declared His position and said, "Enough is enough! You have no place here! I worship my God and I serve My God only! I refuse to listen to you any longer!"

Jesus knew His authority and position. Jesus new His Father in heaven was greater than he that was standing before Him. He knew not to test the Lord God. He knew that man did not live by bread alone, but by every Word that came from the mouth of God. He knew that satan was an obstacle and did not have the mind of Christ. Jesus knew His purpose and reason for His beating heart.

Jesus knew NOT to bargain or compromise with satan.

What have you compromised in your life?
Is it an impure relationship?
Sex outside of marriage?
A "little" bit of pornography?
An adulterous relationship?
A "tiny" bit of flirting with someone who's married?
Honesty? Integrity? Character?
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Jesus, I pray that you would expose the lies of the enemy for what they are: lies. I pray that you would open up the hearts of all those reading these words, and I pray that you would begin to shine Truth into their minds. I pray for the Holy Spirit to war for the people who have become enslaved to sexual addiction. I pray that you begin breaking chains right now, in Jesus' name. Show us where the line needs to be drawn in our lives. Show us the way. Show us where we are being deceived. Bring us back to a heart of purity once again. In Jesus' name, Amen


August 30, 2011

No Husband??? Like forever???

"O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no HUSBAND???

Psalm 63:1
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If you are familiar with the above Bible passage, you will recognize that the word HUSBAND has replaced the word WATER.

"...my body longs for you...where there is no water."

I've spent many of my adult years single. I was married for four years, but separated for 2 1/2 of those four years.

When I was a little girl, I wanted to grow up and be a doctor, a wife, and a mommy. I became a mommy first. I never became a doctor. My dream as a wife fizzled shortly after I said, "I do."

In the good times of my marriage, I loved being a wife. I loved cooking, taking care of the kids and house, and greeting my husband at the door. I loved the companionship and friendship. I loved the kissing and hand-holding and romance. I loved the dream of what I envisioned a marriage to be.

When times got hard, I still loved being a wife. When times got even harder, I still longed to be his wife. When things were totally dissolved, I still wanted to be a wife. After being divorced for 2 1/2 years, I still long to be someone's wife again someday.

Several months ago, God asked me if I would give Him my desire to be a wife.

I agreed and said, "Yes, God." (of course after many tears)

The last week, I have been observing couples who are in love. The "newly dating" couples. The "50 year anniversary" couples. The "Best Friend" couples.

I have found myself longing for that.

Again.

And so the wording for the above scripture was birthed...

What are you longing for today? A relationship? A job promotion? A dream? A desire? Children?

What if another husband is not in God's plan for my life? What if I'm meant to go solo until I die or until Jesus returns? Can I be o-kay with that? Will I be o-kay with that? Will I still love God the same? Will I still trust Him with my heart?

Yes. I will. And I do.

Because I know He holds my world in His hands.

So, what do I do with my desires when they come? What do I do when that dream invades my heart and longs to be fulfilled?

I go back to God and proclaim:

"O God, you are my God,

earnestly I(CHOOSE TO) seek you;

my soul(CHOOSES TO) thirst for you,

my body (CHOOSES TO) long for you,

in a dry and weary land

where there is no water_(your dream here)__

Psalm 63:1




August 25, 2011

"I'm good, thanks." (But really, I'm not!)

"Hey, I'm at the store and I'm wondering what you need," my friend's voice declares confidently on the other end of the phone.


"I'm good, thanks. I appreciate you asking! That was so sweet of you." (This tends to be a "pat" answer for me...you know...because if I did need something, I seldom would let anyone know.)


"Um...I asked you what you needed." She firmly stated.

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This is my friend, "L", who ALWAYS calls at the PERFECT moment with the simple question, "What's up?"

Now this could be just a general "how are ya?" question, but with "L", that question comes with the interpretation (implied, yet unspoken) : "God placed you on my heart just now. What's going on? How can I pray for you?"

This is also my friend, "L", who provided my "Mint green box of tissues" I wrote about HERE.

This is also my friend, "L", who shows up at my door, at the exact time that I'm praying about a need I have, with the needed item.

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As I heard her question me the second time, my mind began to replay the scenario of my quiet time with God earlier this week.

"God, these are the items I know I will run out of before I get paid again. I do not know what to do. I have no more money coming in & these are my essentials. Please provide." I wrote the list down in my prayer journal, and I continued on with my day knowing He would provide.
From the time she asked me what I needed until the time I answered her was probably only a few seconds, but it seemed like forever as I began to talk to myself and to God. I felt a "God conversation" coming on:

"You asked ME to provide, right?"

"Yes Lord, but why do I have to tell her? That's so embarrassing! Why can't you just tell "L" what I need? I dislike being 'needy'".

"Because, dear child. I'm teaching you a new thing."

"O-kay. Fine."

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"I could use some toilet paper." I shyly sputtered out the words.

"O-kay, sounds good. I'll drop it off later," She said.

"Thank you SO much "L". You're an answer to my prayer!"

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I LOVE being the one that can bless someone else! I LOVE being the "giver"!

I struggle with "NEEDING"! Ugh! I just want to give, give, give!

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I think back to the other people who have recently asked what they can do for me. I get sad because I have been too prideful to tell them I'm in need. I have been doing so well financially over the past year and I feel like I'm stepping backward by asking for help. I have stole the blessing from them because they just wanted to bless me. It makes me sad because I get sad when I don't know how to bless someone else.

Sigh.

Thank you Jesus for another teaching moment.

I could not bring myself to ask for anything else on my "list". I was prideful. I was ashamed. I felt "less than". I felt "needy" and that's not a comfortable place for me to be.

Sigh.

When someone asks you what you need, they want to bless you. They want to truly reach out and help. Allow them to be there for you. Don't steal their blessing from them. Whether it's a meal, or an offer to babysit, or tangible items, or an offer to help clean your house, or even if you need prayer.

God is faithful to provide!

Blessings friends!

August 24, 2011

21 years ago...

...my father took his last breath...

in a hospital bed...

After hanging on...

silently...

day after day...

for 7 days...

in a coma...
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DAY 1- DAY 3
The doctors said:--->

He's brain dead.
Wait!
He's not brain dead.
Never mind.
I guess he's brain dead after all.
He's not breathing on his own.
He will never wake up.
He could be in a coma for years.
He will be a vegetable for the rest of his life.
"I recommend you pull the plug."

"Heaven, (15yo girl), what do YOU want?"
(I want my dad to jump up & hug me & talk to me!!!)

"...um...I don't know."

Life support disconnected.

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"It should only be a few hours now."
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Waiting.
Pacing.
Crying.
Waiting...

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4 DAYS LATER...

"Maybe we should put a feeding tube in!"
"He's breathing on his own."
"There is still brain activity."
"He's hanging on."
"He's a fighter."
"I can't believe he's still here!"
"The probabilities are high!"
"He should have died."
"He can come out of this."
"Let's give it another shot!"

RECOMMENDATION...
Short Surgery time to put a feeding tube in.
(My aunt & I joyfully go eat lunch)

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INTERCOM:
(20 minutes later)

"Would the family of Jerry Moorhouse please
return to the patient's room?"
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"Wow! That was really quick!"

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"I'm sorry"
"He's gone."

"It's almost as if he waited until
no one was around...
and then gave up."

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21 YEARS AGO, My dad shot himself.
21 YEARS LATER, his 5 adult children still mourn.

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We remember this day each year...
and still wonder...

what life would've been like if...

  • He could have seen us each graduate.
  • He could have "given away" his 3 daughters on their wedding days.
  • He could have met his youngest son's wife.
  • He could have met his oldest son's fiance.
  • He could have met his grandchildren.

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Suicide is never the answer.
Ever...

21 years is a LONG time...

To
leave
your
children
behind
to
long
for
just
one
more
word,
one
more
hug,
ONE
MORE...

"I love you."

August 20, 2011

February 5, 2011

February musings

I am amazed by the amount of time that has gone by since I used to be a "regular blogger". So much has happened since I last posted. It's incredible.

I do not have internet access anymore at home and for whatever reason, I can't even post from my cell phone anymore, so thus the reason for my absence.

I am actually attending a Graham Cooke conference this weekend in Arden Hills, MN. If you have never heard of him, I HIGHLY recommend listening to some of his teachings. He speaks of identity, God's favor, and love for us. We have one more session tonight to attend, and then we head back home tomorrow afternoon. I cannot write (or process) fast enough as God is downloading His heart for me into my spirit this weekend. I have been given new eyes to see this weekend and I'm excited to take them for a "drive" for the rest of my life.

I love being amazed by my Daddy God! I love how He intentionally puts the pieces of my life together!!! I love getting to know more of His heart! I am even beginning to love it when He shows me an area of my life HE wants to improve. I am NOT where I want to be but exactly where God wants me to be. I know, I know, it's hard to comprehend that God has us exactly where we are for a purpose. After this weekend, I am convinced that I AM EXACTLY where God wants me to be, because He sees me as Perfect because of Jesus IN me!!! I'm not going to argue that one because before this weekend, I was convinced that I was anywhere EXCEPT where I was supposed to be.

I figured there was a destination I had to reach. I thought I wasn't good enough yet for God. I assumed that God would love me more if I could only reach "that place" (wherever that place is!!!) where He wanted me to be. THAT is such a lie from the enemy! I don't have enough time or space to expand on that. I just love the revelation that I have received this weekend.

Revelation? I mean "REVELATIONSSSSSSS". New eyes to see. New ears to hear. The deafness and the blindness are falling off of me.

Already, my time is through on here. :( I have been writing! Alot! Some of it on Facebook for others to see, but most of it in my journal and my future book-to-be. God willing, I should be back on a regular basis in a couple months, and I can share more, but for now, I pray that you will get new eyes to see and new ears to hear everything that God wants you to see and hear. If you want to connect on a more personal basis, feel free to connect with me on Facebook.

Blessings! Heaven

Trusting God

My son has been pretty sick lately. Even though he's an adult, I still worry about him. I probably get annoying as I ask the same questi...