December 29, 2008

Be Still...

"Be still and know that I am God..."

Be still=be silent before the Lord...be quiet...don't move...don't panic...rest...relax...focus on One voice...Let your walls down...wait...be patient...just be...cry if you want...cleansing tears...calming tears...do not be afraid...feel His presence...breathe...let Him overwhelm you...don't speak...listen...and really hear...feel His heartbeat...and His gentle touch...relax in His arms...and just be...let your guard down...He's waiting...Your Heavenly Father is waiting...feel his embrace...see His tears...feel His peace...He loves you...He will guide you...He will restore your joy...and your peace...He is...and you are...

Know that I am God= quit trying to figure everything out...shut your mind off...no analyzing...no figuring it out...just acknowledge...just wait...His plans are better than yours...His love more amazing than you can imagine...His forgiveness unending...let Him out of the box...He can do anything He wants...however He wants...whenever He wants...He can fix anything...and anyone...but You have to Know...that He, and He alone, is God...What other options do you have...are they working for you...

Learning to "Be still..."

December 28, 2008

I'm Back!

O-kay, so months later, I finally return. It seems like an eternity since I have been able to type on my own keyboard, but it has definitely been worth it. As I stated in a recent post, I really have had more time with God and time to re-focus my thoughts.

There has been ups and downs, and sometimes even side-ways events going on, but it's all been about perspective. Some days are good and some days are bad, but God is always good, and always faithful.

I took down my Christmas tree today...it's a little bare in here...and a little empty...

Somewhere over the last week, I lost my perspective...lost my edge on life...(or should I say I have felt like I am walking on the edge). I allowed materialism to get the best of me. I allowed the "lack of" to consume me. I allowed the enemy to steal my joy and peace. I allowed my tree and decorations to define Christmas.

My intentions were good...well, they started out good. Everything was going to be Christ-centered and I was going to stay focused on Him while others got wore down by the "busyness" of this season. I was going to be grateful for ALL things, no matter what. I was going to enJOY family get-togethers, and Christmas services, and time spent "Spreading the Joy of the Lord"...

I was going to...but I let guard down, and got side-swiped...

As I took down my Christmas tree, my youngest son cried, "Now Christmas is over. Why can't it be longer???"

I was irritated...I thought, "Do you realize how chaotic it has been the past few days???"

I immediately was convicted, and realized I totally missed it this year. I had a big 'ol Christmas season without the birthday guest of honor: Jesus.

I allowed the "chore" of gift-giving to get in the way. I allowed my recent vehicle issues and lack of transportation to rip my joy away. I allowed people's "icky" attitudes to change my own. I allowed myself to be obligated to go to events because of "guilt trips". I couldn't wait to get everything "over with", so I could just "get on with my life"...

I read people's blogs, and they speak of "bringing Christ into their lives this season", and I totally slammed the door in His face. Whew! Nothing like a "real" blogger moment, huh? I often wonder why God made me so transparent:)

So...Father God, I repent of being so selfish and oblivious to the gift you have given me...the most important one of all: Your son, Jesus Christ. I became "busy" and "the noise of life" consumed me, leaving You out of the picture for the past week. I thank you that Your mercies are new every morning, and that I can call upon those mercies right now to begin again. I ask for a renewed heart and a right spirit within me, and that You would just wash away my selfishness and pride. You have blessed me soooo much, even during my whining and complaining, and yet, I was too focused on everything that was going wrong. I am so sorry Father!!! Thank You for loving me right where I am, the way I am, and even knowing I would hurt Your heart like I have. Lead me in the right direction, on the right path, and show me how to live Christmas everyday of the year, not just one day of the year. Help me to teach my children what your gift REALLY means, and that it's not about just December 25th of every year. Thank you for everything! Help me to pick myself up and live as the woman of God you have called me to be...

Living in total grace today...

December 9, 2008

Here for a blurb

Life update...

Snow, snow, snow...buried under snow. Shovel is already way too worn out and winter isn't even officially here yet. It took me an hour and a half to dig out my van this morning....ugh!!! The kids enjoyed a snow day and that hasn't happened for at least an entire school year, so they are feeling pretty blessed.

Ventured out for an hour's worth of work (one client), so although the pay may not have been worth the trip out, the character quality I am giving to my new job is that of committment. (I must add that this is not a born trait of mine, rather one God has been pushing me to learn over a lifetime). Hey, whether it is easy or hard to grasp, it's definitely a well-worth quality to acquire, so praise God, I just might finally be "getting it". Woo hoo!

Still no computer, but I guarantee plenty of reading material once I return. Yes, I have officially finished all of the pages of a journal since I have been off the computer. It's amazing how much you can learn when technology is taken away from your life. We not only have no computer currently, but we went through a period of about 3 weeks with no telephone as well. During that time, TV time was cut down as well. (May as well tackle everything at once, huh?). Wow, it's amazing how loud God speaks when there is no phone ringing, or TV blaring, or radio consuming the space around a person. Talk about amazing!

There has been struggles as well, but more than struggles, there has been victories! I keep hearing a speaker's words over and over in my head: Be grateful for anything that brings you to your knees, because it brings you closer to God. Isn't that the truth??? It's amazing the things in life that one can get through when they change their perspective and thoughts.

Blessings are pouring in as God's reminder that obedience does pay off. God does recompense us and repay us for all the many things He asks us to give up along the path of following Him. He also makes the enemy pay us back for everything he has stolen from us. Praise God! How can a person not expect "Spring" in the middle of Winter with thoughts and meditations like those!!!

So my thought until we meet again is: Just because it may physically be approaching the winter and cold season, does NOT mean that Spring can't arrive in your Spirit and in your heart. Expect flowers to bloom in your life as you are living the obedient life Christ Jesus has asked you to walk. Yes, the world may be in a financial crisis, but we are not of this world, as we are aliens and strangers in this foreign land. Our real home is in heaven, and our Daddy God has all the resources we possibly need in this life and the next. Take authority and ask heaven's blessings to invade earth on God's people. In the matchless name of Jesus Christ we declare!!! Fear cannot operate when faith is present!!!

Until visiting brother's house again, Heaven

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